A short bitter sweet memory

2am in the morning.
I could not sleep.
I need to voice this out.
A memory.
A short, yet heart-broken memory.
The first time i experience love at 1st sight.
And the first time a girl appear again and again in my dream.
She has a pair of charming eye.
Her smile is radiant.
Her eye seem as it can communicate message to other.
She is talkative , and let people feel comfortable around her.
Apparently, i am attracted to her.
I asked friends around her to see if she is available.
And they say yes.
I am thrill, and i try to get to know more about her.
And through the info i get, i grow to like her even more.
I believe she is the one i am after.
And just before i take the next step, another friend give me the bad news.
She is most likely engaged at the moment.
With another person in the same organization.
My heart broke into pieces.
Tonight, will be a sleepless night fr me.
I will review my memory with her, and try to stuff it,
into a discrete part of brain.
Tomorrow, i will ask for confirmation from her about her realtionship status.
If its true, i will let her go.
Let me just grief for this night.
Alone, in front of nic computer.
Let me just sit back and think.
Tomorrow, might be a better day.
Meanwhile, it will be great if there are beer around.


心痛
曾经以为
你就是我的缘分
你明亮的眼睛
钩去了我的魂
你微笑的脸庞
牵动了我的心
不相信一见钟情的我
因你而改变

曾经以为
放过你
将会是我人生的遗憾
但原来
只是我自作多情
你已经
有了你的缘分

我好想放开一切
勇敢的追求你
虽然我是多么的讨厌第三者
虽然我的良知在反抗

最后
我还是决定放弃
因为我不知道
我是否能比你现在的他
更适合你
毕竟，我还对你了解不深

今晚
就让我静静的心痛
他妈的
比失恋还痛苦